Mountaincide n. the act of killing a mountain

by Girls With Depression

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NSFW: PREVIOUSLY UNRELEASED AUTOBIOGRAPHICAL ALBUM (obviously) INCLUDING A SONG EXPLICITLY ABOUT MASTURBATION

this is an old project I never got around to releasing. I'm retroactively releasing it on my 25th birthday because that's close enough to when I actually made this.

Mountaincide is an album of songs about growing up in my hometown of Sperryville, VA. I didn't exactly love growing up there. I was a miserable, depression-prone, autistic wretch, but at least I had the Internet. This is an album about adolescence, so yeah, there's a song explicitly about masturbation.

With the Internet, I fostered my sense of grand delusion that led me to make albums like this one. Full circle.

I'm also working on a new full-length album called Cloaking Device.
You can learn more about that at these two links:
cynothing.bandcamp.com
brazanthr.com/cloakingdevice/index.php

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released December 20, 2014

everything by Cy Nothing Parker
cynothing.bandcamp.com

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Girls With Depression Richmond, Virginia

making psychedelic pop music (without enough sarcasm) since 2010!

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Track Name: Falling in Love at the Geodesic Dome
i think i've convinced myself
i think i know
(love)

daydreaming that i know
exactly what it is

love
la la

i know what love feels like
i feel it all the time now
i will day dream and i
ignore all the classwork
and i'll ignore all the words

ignore all the people
all around me cuz i'm a haze
i'm in a daze
i'm a cloud
i'll spend my days dreamin' 'bout my love
my one true love
my love my own true love

and i know what i am talking about
no i'm not
all wrong
just a little bit wrong
and i'm not ignoring things i shouldn't ignore
i'm exactly as focused as i need to be
i write poetry

ignore all the people
all around me cuz i'm a haze
i'm in a daze
i'm a cloud
i'll spend my days dreamin' 'bout my love
my one true love
my love my own true love
Track Name: Nocturnal Summer
alternating in between
staring at windows and screens
seeing only the same hills
the screen names on the screen
and i would get up at sunrise
to take pictures of the clouds

keeping my summers as lonely
as lonely as they could be

packing my lunches to school
in ziploc bags turn into mush
grossing out the cool kids
they were cool because they let me sit with them

i would stay up the whole night
dreaming my stupid dreams
watching and listening movies
watching my computer screen

and i would sleep in the day
and take pictures of the sunrise

alternating in between
screens and window screens

and i would leave here forever
if i had the opportunity
if i had the opportunity

i would leave here forever
alternating between
i would stay up the whole night
dreaming my stupid dreams
watching and listening movies
watching my computer screen
and i would sleep in the day
Track Name: Downloading Anime Illegally is Good for You
torrenting everything i have
a pirate culture mine
stealing from the torrentspy
and watching all night long

and this was my inside world
and my outside as well
sharing it cuz sharing's good
and sharing feels so swell

dark was the night but the incandescent light and air conditioner worked so well
and some nights my friends came over and we'd torrent all night long
we were just a band of thieves
this was politics as well
sharing it cuz sharing's good
and sharing feels so swell

secrets of a culture we refused to understand
creating for ourselves a culture that no one would understand

i wouldn't really be alone if i torrent all night long
acne hard-drive kings
torrent all the things

sharing it cuz sharing's good
and sharing feels so swell

sharing it cuz sharing's good
and sharing feels so swell
Track Name: Late Puberty (I'll Be Coming at Home)
it was just a few short hours
it was just three hundred feet
and i couldn't wait
i could barely wait to see

new pornography was waiting
downloading at home
filling me up so i could have it
i could have it all

i'll be coming at home
i'll be coming at home
i knew i was late for this
i was missing out
i knew i was late for this
i was missing out
missing out

i'd be coming at home
have it all

digital dreams to bury my shame in
strange comics with frogs
tentacles rising streamers
why come down

if you're lucky i just might remember to close the door
naively i hid myself behind some furniture

i knew i was late for this
i was missing out
years my peers have had it but this one
this one was mine
this was my own
this was my own talk
this was my own piece
this was mine
this was my own talk
have it all

it was just a few short hours
it was just three hundred feet
and i could barely
barely wait to see

new pornography was coming
downloading at home
and i was afraid of what i'd be coming when i'd be coming at home
Track Name: Song for Bob Ross
the first time that i saw the man on TV he made me happy
effortlessly he painted trees and rocks and streams

oh i recall the mountains that he carved upon the paint
and i recall the mountains that i wanted to get away from
and i wrote in my notebook stories 'bout societies in skies
they had terrorists who wanted to tear it all down
because that's what i wanted
i wanted to tear it down

kill the mountains
kill the mall
kill everyone i've ever known
all of it

the first time that i saw the man he told me to be happy
he told me this remotely from the seventies on the TV
and i picked up the brush and tried to put away
all the hatred rotting in my
wrote in my notebook stories 'bout societies in skies
and they had terrorists who wanted to tear it all down
because that's what i wanted
i wanted to tear it down

kill the mountains
kill the mall
kill everyone i've ever known
all of it

kill the mountains
kill the mall
kill everyone i've ever known
all of it
Track Name: Sci-Fi Novel About Wolf People Aliens
a low-budget school mostly built in the '70s
so i don't know the past
and the books all tell me lies
how can i know the truth?

i know some facts
i know myself
at least i would think that i know

to the wolves i throw myself cuz at least i think i know

and i invent a universe where mankind is reviled
there will be only spaceships and they're going anywhere else
the wolves will howl and the guns will crack and the lasers shine all the time

and i will ride upon the backseat of an ATV on the woods
colors i've never seen on the biggest TV screen
or rarest DVDs
drawing escapist things
coloring gruesome death with mice
just to while the time

and i invent a universe where mankind is reviled
there will be only spaceships and they're going anywhere else
the wolves will howl and the guns will crack and the lasers shine all the time

whatever happened to you
we grew distant fast
you wandered across the leaves and pathways
but i never came back

we'll be killers later
we're just dirty punks right now
drawing escapist things
on paper or ms paint

i know some facts
i know myself
at least i would think i know

to the wolves i throw myself
cuz at least i think i know
Track Name: Little Sister Really Didn't Want Me to Have a Better Camera Than Her
she said don't
i have got the same one

oh don't you think that i've got a right to buy what i have researched?
oh don't you think that maybe i know something 'bout what i talk?
and i am gonna use my knowledge
show you all i have it
i am gonna use my knowledge
show you all i have it

and i was gonna buy the camera that was on sale
she said don't cuz i have the same one

don't you think that maybe i know a little thing or two?
don't you think that teacher maybe i'm smarter than you?
don't you think you've explained all your points well enough?
there are more things than you presented
the world is complex

she said don't you buy that camera
i have the same one
i have the same one
i have the same one

i am gonna prove it
oh i need you all to know

scribble it over everything i own
and show it all, then some

but then i'll take you home with me
and then i'll take you home
and i'll stay at home by myself when i take you home with me

she said don't you buy that camera
she said please don't buy that camera
she's so jealous of me
she said

and i will put you in my shadow
put you behind me
and my shadow's darker because i'm so terrible
nobody likes me and i have made a statement
you are not as smart as the least popular
the meanest guy around
so she said
don't you buy it
i have the same one
Track Name: Trip to the Geodesic Dome
i look at the clock
the red digital LCD numbers
and i get in a car to find her
i get in a car driven by my father

and he doesn't really want to
but he kinda gets it
he was young once too
and he still remembers

the road is lined with white trees
that flash against the black of night
the headlights eat up the whole road
scrolling gravel below

dial up to 4chan
show me things that i'll regret
show me things i do not know
is this the girl i haven't met yet

and i was gonna meet someone
in the dead of the night
and i was gonna be in love
i swear i'm gonna get this right

oh i'm desperate to get out
oh oh oh oh
ohhh...

oh i look at the screen and see
the vertical start menu thingies
she says that it gives her more space
but that's kinda bullshit
she does it just to be different
and i just wanna be different
she explains all of the things there are
and it kinda sounds terrible

the road is lined with porno
that chokes up a phone line stream
and people react harshly
T O G T FO (tits or get the fuck out)

this is gonna be torture
cuz i'm dumb and seventeen
i won't get this even close to right
remember my failure forever

and i was gonna meet someone
in the dead of the night
and i was gonna be in love
i swear i'm gonna get this right

i was definitely young once
and i still remember